"Ok so I finished spiral about 6 months ago and my life has completely changed. Some bizarre coincidence occurred which led me head first into the job of my dreams - finally being seen as a specialist in my field (which I'm now having to work hard to live up to, which is a good challenge!). Back at uni, moved back into the city, full on external identity change. Internally, The negative self critic has pretty much fallen away - and when she is there she gets loved too. I actually love myself, truly. I like being me and I'm grateful for all my traumas in life because they have given me a richness that enables me to connect deeply with others. I've opened up to my femininity and sexuality. For the first time in my life I fully acknowledge my attractiveness and am enjoying being a woman. I'm loosing my "fuck the world" masculine defence and learning to allow the men in my life to guide and behold me. And I'm connecting with the beauty in other women, and they are no longer a threat. I've even just joined an "opening the cervix" group and feel so much joy to hear my fellow sisters accessing their strength and joy like I am. And the unravelling has only just begun!!"